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movie watching


i think i am going to go watch a movie, rather than write in my blog today… i could write about anything… i just dunno what…. so why think about it at all… watching a movie is much easier… much more passive and possibly even more relaxing than writing a blog entry and the pain of carpal tunnel… damn, i hope there is something good on… and i hope these fucken roofers get off my roof.. kuz they are banging and making way to much noise to comfortably watch a movie….. hey maybe i should just leave the house.. and get my camera… naaa… not quite yet… still need to determine if i can afford it.. kuz i am going to need every last penny, for my mid october trip!!


huh? examination.


scattered thoughts… wow… ok focus…. there are some important events coming up and i need to be on my ‘a’ game…. i need to go through the info point for point… analyse it… provide examples… and follow ups for the examples… i need to stay on task… answer the questions… and don’t slip up… this will be worse than a job interview… kuz at a job interview – you have nothing to lose… communication skills are key… the facts must be demonstrated… and the ‘truth’ will prevail… plain and simple…


headlines


well… i have always wondered when people would start to use RSS… it was a really good idea… and seemed quite useful… the problem was… you would have to use an RSS reader.. which would be able to browse the billions of headlines for all your favourite news sites/blogs… but when ever you wanted to get more than the headline (and very brief description), you would have to click it.. and view the page in your web browser… this was kinda cumbersome… kuz why wouldn?t you just use your web browser in the first place… and goto the sites you want to check the headlines of… so that why i never really used it… but with the new version of FireFox… it has a feature called ‘live bookmarks’… basically… FireFox has incorporated RSS into the bookmark.. meaning… you can check you headlines in your bookmarks.. and if you see one you like.. you simple click on it… its amazing… its probably the best way anyone could incorporate RSS…. it still has a few bugs… and should be easier to add live bookmarks… (some websites its easy, others not so… ) but yeah.. check it out if you get a chance… its worth it…


our airways, our messages


looks like Kalle Lasn is up to something good this time… looks like his magazine/foundation [Adbusters Media Foundation] is filing a lawsuit against the major Canadian broadcasters (even the CRTC) for the right to purchase air time on Canadian tv. this suit could have a huge impact on Canadian tv, by diminishing the control broadcasters have over ad content. basically right now… the ads you see are allowed because they support the beliefs of the corporations that own the tv stations. if the courts rule that Kalle can put his ads on… this would allow anyone [with enough money] to purchase air time.. and broadcast their message to the Canadian population…

for more info check out the CBC

the broadcasters (that are using public airways – so basically analog channels/nationwide networks) should not have the right to filter ad content… ad should simply be reviewed by the CRTC… (to filter out truly harmful message, those that hurt people not just profits)…

Kalle says it best: “Essentially, this is about free speech. In a democracy citizens should have equal right to access the public airwaves ? we own them. At the very least, we should be able to buy airtime under the same rules and conditions as corporate advertisers.

ok now i must go study for real…


rewards vis-a-vis goals


digital cameras and studying.. wow.. maybe i was so enthusiastically looking to find a digital camera yesterday, because well, i needed to stall studying.. this studying for the lsat is so weird… kuz i don’t know the answers.. i can’t study material.. and memorize it like i have for every test i have ever written… read, memorize, regurgitate, forget…. this test… it about proficiency in logical and analytical reasoning as well as reading comprehension… i have been practising style and technique rather than ‘studying’…. this is all good… but i am a bit nervous… kuz i don’t know how i will perform on exam day… even if i get my reading speeds up… and my time to answer questions down… how will i feel on the day of the exam?? now.. this uncertainty is playing a role in my procrastination… because if i don’t know, or really even have a good idea (based on past experiences) how can i determine the best way for me to prepare for this exam… i can’t simply follow the suggestions of the authors of my study books… kuz… sure their strategies may work for the masses, they may not for me… just like for normal exams… some kids would stay up all nite studying… me on the other hand.. would goto bed early… and stop studying… kuz i found i performed better if i was well rested and if my brain was not over loaded with every last detail… anyway, i have worked hard (and still need to for the next 2 weeks), and deserve (/will deserve) to buy myself a toy… its been over a year since i have bought one… and since then i have graduated university, completed some small goals, did a few extra jobs for some spending cash, and well… yeah… so hey.. this is what i am going to do… i am going to get back to my box and continue preparing for this test… and once i have completed the test on oct 2nd and my temp job on oct 3rd… i will reward myself.

update [13:04]: of course the following line was found in my horoscope today… for all you nay-sayers… i dunno “Be careful of doing anything to excess and avoid wasting money on items that appeal to your fancy now but do not have any lasting merit or appeal.”


the greeting


it starts with a greeting… this greeting is essential… it is not just what you say.. but how you look, how you portray yourself and how this greeting is received… this greeting is key to everything to follow….

random nouns:
conversation… connection… respect… goal…. well-being… mystery… confidence… initiative… anxiety… butterflies… attraction… joy… pride… regret… opportunity… confusion… options…


becoming antsy


it’s now 4 oclock and i have done fuck all today, i attempted to apply for one job (but was talked out of it due to lack of pay), i have paid some bills, and looked into the application process for EI. i could just go have a beer and relax… or get in the car and visit some friends… or take my laptop to the store so they can fix the optical drive and look at the screen… but i don’t want to… i was going to go for a bike ride.. but my tire is flat… i should go fix my tire… yeah.. or maybe just go for a run… i want to play some tennis actually… but it seems like i am the only bum around so finding a tennis partner is difficult… i could clean this mess up… but naaa… i am so antsy… industrious to find myself some happiness… but somehow lost and incoherent to any direction in life…. well that’s not totally true… i have a general idea of the direction i want to take… and that direction is anywhere ‘up’… i refuse to waste anytime going ‘down’… this up and down scale is totally subjective to my beliefs and ideas of what life could/should be… basically meaning right now i am not willing to do something that does not require the ‘hoops’ i have already passed through… (ie skool, experience, etc…) this makes perfect logical sense… (why would i want to go backwards?) so this means what? i need to focus on what will make me happy, not what will simply give me money… now.. i think i would settle for something that gives me money and respect, even if i will not be totally happy with it… kuz that respect and money can be transferred into other aspects of my life… which could lead to happiness… anyways.. i am going for a run… peace out all!!


common phrases


are you a slashdot reader? are you an addict? if you you may be accustomed to the following phrases on the top of your slashdot page.

– Have you Meta Moderated recently? Regular Meta Moderators are more likely to get mod points.
– You have 5 Moderator Points! Use ’em or lose ’em!
– The next Slashdot story will be ready soon, but subscribers can beat the rush and see it early!

i used to like meta moderating… it was like.. hey i am almost a geek… and then one day.. i got real mod points.. and i knew i was a geek… i always made sure to use them all up… and now… nothing… i simple ignore these common phrases (unless i blog about them)…

now really who would subscribe to slashdot… really do you really get to know something before someone else if you subscribe? no you don’t… even you you did.. who cares… it’s like a 4 minute delay… but in reality you never will kuz slashdot is like a blog of other news stories from other sites… so if you read every site on the internet you can know stuff even before the slashdot subscribers… another good site.. that is kinda of fun once and a while is fark.com… fark is huge… not as big as slashdot..and its readers don’t matter as much… but its still kool…

slashdot readers are loyal man… .they post… they critique… they create community… the internet is kinda neat that way… community… something that dies in the suburbs of life… something consumerism kills… but online community is king!! thanks slashdot… and of course my reader(s)!!! i know yer there… you just prefer to read and not be involved.. thats kool… but really feel free to leave a comment…


one billion


well i applied for one billion jobs today… and i doubt that i will even get a call from any of them… online job searches are just not an effective way to progress… it is all about connections… i just wish i knew more people with some clout…. there are a few people in my life that have put for some effort in helping me… and i do appreciate it… once i score a job.. you will be named ;) thank you… so today was the second day of me being a bum… and it wasn’t too bad.. it actually did feel like i was progressing in this job hunt… i think as long as i put a daily effort in.. something is roll around… i am still keeping my expectations high.. kuz there is no point getting distracted working some shit ass job that i am over qualified for…

i could put my energy into something entrepreneur-ish… but i am keeping that as a side project… kuz right now i want to work for someone… the freelance web devel income is nice tho… i do enjoy depositing those cheques… i should go buy something nice right now… while i still have some extra cash… before i have to spend it on survival… i think tomorrow i will look into interest relieve on my OSAP… kuz that came outta my bank today… and sucked ass… kuz i have no more income… so…. yeah… i need to do that…

i still want a digital camera tho… i think i may buy one this weekend… but hopefully not… but yeah… i dunno what else to write right now… so yeah.. peace… and until my next submission.





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