it wasn’t that i disagreed with it, but being in an environment where compliments are far too often used as a tactic on the unsuspecting, it certainly stopped me in my tracks.
it’s not everyday someone freely dishes out an adjective that so accurately characterizes you in a manner that, just hearing it, reminds you and reassures you that you actually just might be that person you’ve always been. you could even say it only happens once in a blue moon.
anyway, in a time when i would, more often than not, identify and describe myself with its antonyms, it was a refreshing surprise.
over the last few years i’ve changed.
i’ve kept some things fairly constant (my job, my home) but for the most part i’ve been starting, stopping, trying, fiddling, and tweaking things.
major shit has happened (dad’s heart attack then stroke, grandpa’s cancer, grandma’s passing away, and more…)
i’ve worked on big projects… i’ve travelled.
i’ve learned about a new industries: video games.
i’ve grown a beard, bought a hat, joined a softball team.
i’ve had ups and downs in relationships and even cut friends from my life.
i’ve read books, attended dozens of concerts, and even started to gain an understanding and appreciation for music created before i was.
i’m not optimistic by default as i once was. i know shit sucks now. but i kinda like knowing that.