whoa, it feel like a long time since i have blogged. ever since i attended the northern voice bloggers conference, i feel this weird uneasiness when it comes to blogging. it seems that this day dedicated to blogging produced feelings of FUD around me and my blog. well this FUD has to stop. my thoughts, my feelings, and my opinions will live here – without the need to second-guess myself or live up to some stupid ‘suggested principals’ and/or obey by some precautionary measures…. fuck that. my blog has to be real.. and yes.. this could hinder some possibilities in life, but at least it will be me. i hate to say it, but it is kinda like a tattoo that is purposely put somewhere that cannot be concealed. it tells the world that you are who you are (and no matter how stupid i think tattoos are, in this analogy having a tattoo is quite brave and honourable). both a tattoo and a blog are public and ‘permanent’ means to express yourself… both could be considered art and both are part of you. now… a blog is more useful than a tattoo… well for me at least… since it actually provides me (and possibly others) with some benefit, whereas a tattoo seems to be only useful in itself and what society and individuals deem a tattoo to mean. so.. i guess i am trying to say… that as long as i don’t blog for sheer google juice, to strictly generate revenue or to simply align myself up with some trend… then i will take the risk, continue to blog and share my path in life without fear. (phew, thank god for pseudonyms :P)