maybe its a front, its got to be. maybe its to cover up something, something painful. could be there as a shield. but this shield can be penetrated. you will see, you will open your eyes. your front will fade, as i disarm you with a smile.
it’s time… july is almost over.. ryan is getting married on saturday… and there is 1 month of summer left… i am starting to enter the right mindset to start studying for the lsat… while simultaneously continuing the job hunt… there may be a part time weekend position coming up.. which will last for 9 weeks… this is very poor timing … since i will want to focus this time on the lsat… however… maybe this extra responsibility will get be back on track and focused… in other words… goal-oriented. i am kinda of excited about practising and writing the lsat… it will be good to get my logical and analytical reasoning ability up…. also with the potential part time job.. it will give me some more work experience… but who knows right now… i need to get a hold of ryan.. so i can figure out where the wedding is so i can show up for rehearsal 🙂
well…. i am just going to list the items that i want… i want these items because they all seem kool… and i think i should have them…. now i really don’t need them for anything… other than personal ease or pleasure… they are as follows, in no particular order…
– digital camera, external hard drive, usb thumb drive, wireless keyboard and mouse, camera phone, expressvu pvr, laser printer, and umm… i thinks that’s all… please send your donations today.
tequila nite coming up… i think it will be the best booze for my mood… it should change things up a bit… and make everything warm and fuzzy… tequila is good that way… it really does change things up… i have always enjoyed tequila, but when i was in mexico this past february… i grew a greater appreciation for this fine beverage…. i wish it wasn’t so over priced here at the bars… but ohh well… i will just predrink it up using my tequila i have left from the duty free in mexico…
people… people should make the effort… people should care…. people should not be afraid to call… people should have confidence… people should be curious… people should discover… people….
people… should do unordinary things… people should surprise themselves and others… people should experience as much as possible… people should get into ‘trouble’… people should have billions of memories… and billions of memories to come… people….
well there is two “quotes” that i enjoy in the song ‘aeroplane flies high’ performed by smashing pumpkins (written by billy corgan)… and they are as follows:
1) if i knew where i was going, i’d already be there.
2) i’ve always been afraid to die, but i think i am more afraid to live.
these lyrics can be interpreted many different ways (i assume)… but the way i see it…
the first one means… that my life is my life… that i am currently living my life… and if my life were to be any different, it already would be… i would have already made the changes… i would of already progressed to this ‘new’ place to go.
the second one… well.. umm… just means that i am unable to make the changes in life, that will let life progress. these changes ‘should’ be made… because without them you are not really living… but this ties in with the fact that i dunno where i am going… so i can’t make the changes to ‘be there’…
so is it that i am afraid to make the changes or that i dunno what changes to make? or that i should not be afraid to live… and that i should be where i am going?
it’s a matter of a smile. a smile has so much power it is hard to explain. giving a smile is easy, and getting a smile is simply amazing. i think the whole world should smile.
the act of bumming a smoke is not really that out of place. it’s an act of kindness, when the moocher is sincere in their bumming… meaning they do not bum smokes just to save cash.. but rather bum a smoke since they ran out or usually don’t smoke… i think smokers are just all around more approachable people… they are used to talking to one another… they look after each other… they share a common interest (or addiction)… they understand what it’s like when you can’t find your lighter… i am not saying non-smokers are not nice people, i think anyone that is willing to share something of theirs is a nice person…. like if you go to someone’s house and they offer you a beer… they are nice! but if they offer you water when they have beer… they are not that nice… i think it’s important to share! everyone should share! if everyone shared, then everyone would be able to have something when they need it… it’s a matter of karma! but sharing simply because you want someone to share something with you.. is wrong… (unless it’s a trade of some sort)…. so next time someone is at your house… offer them a beer, a sandwich, or even that t-bone steak you’ve been saving… it will make you feel good and it will allow you to have something in common: being nice.
thoughts? hmmm…. i wonder what i am going to talk about right now… i don’t really have a topic in mind, but rather just a craving to make an entry to my world famous blog. yes, world famous! i can make such a claim because this blog can be accessed anywhere in the world!! that’s right… this blog, or online journal can be read by anyone in the world… of course i am assuming that anyone in the world can have WWW access… which isn’t 100% true.. but ohh well… i want to pretend it is…. so anyways… how about those pen chewers… i am one of them… not really sure why i enjoy chewing on pens… other than the simple fact that they pacify me… and entertain me as well!! ummm…
waiting sucks… while i don’t mind waiting for things that i know i will get, but when you have to wait to find stuff out (when there is a chance that stuff may not go as you want it to)… that sucks… like… if your at a theme park.. and you are waiting in line… sure its not as fun as the ride… but i enjoy waiting in lines like that… you simply deal with it.. and you make the best of it… you start talking to people waiting with you and you accomplish more than just going on the ride… now… if there is bad weather then… this kind of wait turns into a wait for a bar… when you are in line for a bar… its all good if its early.. or if you are waiting with the people you plan to hang out with.. but when you are waiting in line for the bar.. and its long and you are not sure if you’ll get in… this sucks…
so i guess i am just trying to say.. that waiting is kool.. if is as waiting in a queue… but waiting for the luck of the draw… sux!
but wait… isn’t the line at the bar a queue? shit… ok.. i need another example… ahh maybe another day!!
peace.
velkr0.