clarity through questioning

as my one year anniversary of being in vancouver quickly approaches, i find myself sitting here, attempting to ponder the results of this past year. i realize that i am anxious to draw out conclusions and record them on this blog as something successfully accomplished in the past; however, that is totally not possible yet.

the results of my move to vancouver cannot be fully understood until a date somewhere way in the future. yes, i know, i’ve experienced a lot of new things in the past year, that have enabled me to do as i wish, but i also know i have missed out on a lot too, so right now, all i can do is hope i made the right decisions along the way.

hold up, let me clarify here, i don’t want to in anyway suggest that i have any regrets about moving out west, since it has actually been one of the bravest, most changeling, and evidently, one of the most rewarding decisions i have ever made in my life. moving to vancouver has thus far resulted in me getting a good job; my own place; the means to completely pay off my student loans; the opportunity to meet a bunch of new and kool people; and of course, it has enabled me to get high speed internet; and all in a very short time. the thing is, i won’t truly be able to determine if any of this is really significant until a later date, where i can look back and say ‘wow, i did good’ or ‘wow, what a total waste of time’. the thing is you never know… everyone is different and so is every situation..

for example, i have my bestest friends in the whole wide world getting engaged and are now soon to be married… i guess they are willing to commit the remainder of their lives to each other, and must totally be confident in who they are and what they what… they must believe they are making the right decision in order to take that honourable path.. and, well, i truly admire that courage – i wish you my best jordan and dan!!

i am sure i too could have that courage, as long as i could find someone who could challenge me, make me laugh, not overly annoy me, and of course bring out the best out of me at all times. and well i guess this is where faith comes in, since i hope if i believe, it will all work out and occur flawlessly.

anyways, now that i think of it, this past year has totally flown by and when i sit here and try to imagine the setting that will occur once i return home, it all seems very familiar and comforting and well, ummm.. pretty boring… but i guess that is really no different than my daily routine here in vancity….

anyways, keep in mind we always have the power to change any aspect of our lives, so whatever we end up deciding and doing.. will simply happen… but as a result, lets all hope we end up as happy campers.