common phrases

are you a slashdot reader? are you an addict? if you you may be accustomed to the following phrases on the top of your slashdot page.

– Have you Meta Moderated recently? Regular Meta Moderators are more likely to get mod points.
– You have 5 Moderator Points! Use ’em or lose ’em!
– The next Slashdot story will be ready soon, but subscribers can beat the rush and see it early!

i used to like meta moderating… it was like.. hey i am almost a geek… and then one day.. i got real mod points.. and i knew i was a geek… i always made sure to use them all up… and now… nothing… i simple ignore these common phrases (unless i blog about them)…

now really who would subscribe to slashdot… really do you really get to know something before someone else if you subscribe? no you don’t… even you you did.. who cares… it’s like a 4 minute delay… but in reality you never will kuz slashdot is like a blog of other news stories from other sites… so if you read every site on the internet you can know stuff even before the slashdot subscribers… another good site.. that is kinda of fun once and a while is fark.com… fark is huge… not as big as slashdot..and its readers don’t matter as much… but its still kool…

slashdot readers are loyal man… .they post… they critique… they create community… the internet is kinda neat that way… community… something that dies in the suburbs of life… something consumerism kills… but online community is king!! thanks slashdot… and of course my reader(s)!!! i know yer there… you just prefer to read and not be involved.. thats kool… but really feel free to leave a comment…

one billion

well i applied for one billion jobs today… and i doubt that i will even get a call from any of them… online job searches are just not an effective way to progress… it is all about connections… i just wish i knew more people with some clout…. there are a few people in my life that have put for some effort in helping me… and i do appreciate it… once i score a job.. you will be named 😉 thank you… so today was the second day of me being a bum… and it wasn’t too bad.. it actually did feel like i was progressing in this job hunt… i think as long as i put a daily effort in.. something is roll around… i am still keeping my expectations high.. kuz there is no point getting distracted working some shit ass job that i am over qualified for…

i could put my energy into something entrepreneur-ish… but i am keeping that as a side project… kuz right now i want to work for someone… the freelance web devel income is nice tho… i do enjoy depositing those cheques… i should go buy something nice right now… while i still have some extra cash… before i have to spend it on survival… i think tomorrow i will look into interest relieve on my OSAP… kuz that came outta my bank today… and sucked ass… kuz i have no more income… so…. yeah… i need to do that…

i still want a digital camera tho… i think i may buy one this weekend… but hopefully not… but yeah… i dunno what else to write right now… so yeah.. peace… and until my next submission.

the weird part

well… it’s over… it’s kinda weird… ending on a note.. that i had no control over… typically i end things when i want to… i like to do it that way so i can end on a high note… this time… i just have to pretend it’s a high note… i have to look at it as an opportunity… a new beginning… a kick in the ass… it’s a wake up!! and do something asshole… why are you so easily beat down by the system… i know i have the world on the tip of my finger.. but its hard to point at one specific place when you have big finger tips… it’s like playing that spin the globe game… “when i grow up, i am going to live… here” game… but the globe is now real.. and my options are limitless… so what’s the problem… why does it feel like i am stuck… stuck in idle… i have a building anger… a tension inside of me… that is coming out.. i just need to focus this anger on something very specific… and something i feel confident that i can achieve… these goals of mine… need to not be at the mercy of others… they need to utilize the freedoms i have… and need to happen as a direct result of my actions… it would be nice… to score something good… from someone else… but when you set personal goals… you can’t depend on others… unless you are willing to become ‘fake’ or ‘suck up’… today was my last day… and today i feel fine… i am just curious how i am going to feel tomorrow… when my alarm goes off at 8 am… and i hit snooze for six and a half hours… and then finally roll outta bed, kuz i have to take a leak… tomorrow i am allowing a write off day… maybe even this whole week… but now is the time to make some drastic changes… i just wish my part time weekend job didn’t exist… kuz i already know it’s going to give me an excuse to do nothing… and then there is writing the lsat.. which is a good goal.. but the problem is… getting into a law school is at the mercy of others.. and something like that cannot be a main goal now.. kuz raising my gpa is simply not an option right now…

the weird part is.. deep inside.. i am still not worried… i am not nervous… i am not worried… it’s my ‘i dunno’… that is forcing myself to get upset about this… i dunno it’s weird… kuz when i sit still and open my eyes for a second… i know that i can do what ever i want… i can accomplish whatever i want… all that matters is that i am happy doing whatever i am doing… now… that’s the tricky part.. what makes me happy?? damn… that one i’ll figure out later.

unorganized rant

movies… you ever wonder how people watch so many movies? i’ve stayed home the last 2 nites and have made it through 3 or maybe 4 movies… and they are all movies other people have seen… it just makes me wonder how people manage or choose what to do with their time… do they do things that they enjoy? must be… i enjoy watching movies and listening to music… i don’t read much fiction… kuz it requires you to get to involved in the text… i prefer reading non-fiction… kuz then i can have some tunes kicking in the background… also… this is why i think i enjoy surfing the web instead of watching tv… the control that i have… i get to pick what content i read and i get to pick what music i listen to… watching television is just way to passive for me to do much of… watching commercials drives me crazy.. unless its late at night or after a long day at work… commercials are also one of the reasons for me hating commercial radio… i just hate being fed shit i don’t want to know… especially kuz the messages being fed to me.. don’t actually matter in real life… movies are good… no commercials!! watching movies on city or tbs drives me crazy!! now.. i don’t think i could really live if i had to choose one medium… television or the internet… since they both play a different role… tv is something that can be shared… it can be a social thing.. sorta… surfing the web… is not…. and sucks when people try to make it so… even this blog.. seems kinda like a social thing.. but its not… it’s all a matter of art… movies are art.. they require a lot of details that most viewers over look… they are the details that make reading fiction so cumbersome… tv is just trash… it is just there to keep our commercial society rolling… how else would be know about the schick quattro?!?!? now i am not saying that movies are not part of the commercial bullshit… but i believe that many films are made for more than that… so how does one choose what to do with their time? i still don’t know.

urban rock

ohh yeah.. and since i am talking about some music… before today… i was on a very long ‘tv on the radio’ kick… their ‘desperate youth, blood thirsty babes’ album is amazing… its chillax… and kool… its not as ‘powerful’ or umm… as ‘pretty’ as ‘sufjan stevens’… but i do enjoy the a cappella…. the ‘urban’, almost ‘ikea’ feeling i get while i listen to this is neat… it’s like its not right to listen to this pumping on my iPod while driving around london… ohh well… i like this album… and i hope you do to.. check it out….

greetings from..

damn… i am really enjoying this sufjan stevens album greetings from michigan: the great lake state…. it is very mellow.. and peaceful… and fun… there are other albums sorta like this.. using some of the same styles… but this album has something original about it… check it out if you get a chance.

horoscope

“This is a pleasant time that is good for all relationships, but you may not feel especially active. Today you tend to attract circumstances, persons or objects, including money, that can be useful later on. The quotation marks around “lucky” mean that it is not so much luck that helps you as your attitude of relaxation and willingness to let your life flow without the tension of resistance. Many things are prevented from entering people’s lives because they are too tense to let them in. At other times you might unconsciously alienate a potentially helpful person, or you might be too cautious or overlook an opportunity because of tension. This influence helps to prevent such negative states of consciousness.”

well.. that’s my horoscope for today… and it’s kinda kool… kuz that’s how i live my life everyday… through my “attitude of relaxation and willingness to let [my] life flow without the tension of resistance. ”

just wanted to share.
peace.
velkr0

btw… horoscope Copyright ? 2004 Astrodienst AG

the ‘Real’ iPod

it boils down to Real sucks… the iPod is good…. but Apple needs to license out FairPlay, or even better allow anyone to use it for free.

this would allow indie bands to create a music store on their own website (with absolutly no middle man), and the songs could be played on the iPod (and other future players that would support FairPlay)

i find it hard to support real’s decision to hack FairPlay, just so they can capitalize on the success of the iPod. Real has always been a bitch, using their own proprietary formats and not sharing. so i hope they burn in hell and that Apple breaks Real’s compatibility (and allows me to put the newest software on my 3G iPod, grrr)

and to summarize… Apple and Real are both bad and wrong. there needs to be an open-source DRM solution, that all digital media players can support and that all firms can use to create their own music stores.

work

well, this weekend at work went much better… i was confident, knowledgeable and comfortable…. its kinda nice working with a steady flow of people again, well twice a week… any more than that and it would probably get on my nerves… it’s a good setting to work at kuz i don’t have a boss or supervisor looking over my every move… i actually met my supervisor this yesterday… she seems pretty uncomfortable in her role… but her report of me was very good… well.. that’s what it said in every box!! i bet she’ll only be back to visit me once more… and for secret shoppers… i am not worried… it’s just the fear they want to instil in me so i actually go to work, and when i am at work i actually do some work. now.. time to prime for my interview on tuesday!! peace all… and thanks for reading!

missing word

a matter of kool… a matter of not ‘draining’ you. draining now there’s a word that i learned from my mom. when someone drains someone they take their energy. they can consume it all, and typically this energy becomes wasted by being used on selfish or unnecessary problems…. draining is always a negative thing… it defiantly not sharing, or encouragement… i can deal with people who drain others, but not when i need to be around someone who can do the opposite of drain… i need to think of a word that can describe that action… its got to be a word that means care, listen, fun, share, encourage, happy, and benevolent. this word is: