urban shine

so today is gorgeous out. it’s sunny, warm, and this city is radiating in every direction. walking around, looking up, with some quality indie canadian music in the background (stars), the sun shining down and reflecting off of the water, while the sail boats coast by, and the mountains look down over all of us… vancouver is such a pretty place. yesterday, dre and i even discovered that we have an ‘unauthorized’ balcony on the roof of our apartment… with a stunning view… and it’s pretty easy to get to… all you have to do is climb through this little window.. and viola… ohh yeah and friday.. we went on a little road trip to the US of A… which was good.. well for the cheap beer, boxed wine, and the indian casino… but for the most part the trip was simply an eye opener.. where i realized how much i enjoy living in the heart of kits… away from big box corporate america, and where the spirit of the city shines just like the sun (or flows like the rain).

birthday! part II

so.. my birthday.. ended off right too… i had some drinks with my roomie… and we got some free drinks from ‘my new bartender’ here in the neighbourhood… these were actually the first free drinks i got in vancity, so it’s a big event for me… and this was great… i also got an unexpected call from a ‘new friend’… which defiantly made me happy and made me smile and simply put my day of surprises over the top… thanks.. and yeah.. you’re right… the music was too loud… and i too look forward to seeing you soon…

well cheers all… and andrew.. for leaving the first e-blog-comment-happy-birthday-wish (on the previous post)… i am off to bed now.. since it is a work nite… thanks for the smiles and the best birthday in a while!! 🙂

birthday!

so many of you may be wondering what this odd image is, but it is a shot of the birthday balloons (and flowers – not shown), that my mom sent me to work. … more to come about my birthday after lunch … lunch time… (time passes.. it’s now 7:56) ok… i am now home… and today was a good day.. a lot of things happened, and i was busy busy all day… and i liked it… high pace is good (well i dunno about everyday)… and now.. i am clam and relaxed… i am thinking i will go out later and grab a few beverages for my birthday, but right now.. i am content laying here.. drinking water and just chillin…. well i am also msn’n it up.. and i have been abusing this unlimited long distance i have kickin… bless the internet!! so… thanks everyone for your contribution to my birthday (and to canada post’s revenue)… whether it be a phone call, e-card, real card, underwear, flowers/balloons, coupon for granola bars, msn message, or in-person verbal happy birthday.. thanks.. you all made my day!! cheers!

banged up music collection

so for the past day or so, i have been struggling to find some music that i could just put on and have it not annoy me… no matter what i choose it seems to bug me somehow, well almost except for the newest ‘six organs of admittance’ album, which just seems to be the only album that ‘can’ fall nicely into the background. but overall.. the normal ‘put shuffle on’ when all else fails has not been working. guess i need to find some new tunes… the hunt is on, or maybe i should just watch some family guy?

colours

i had to blog this just kuz it was so damn colourful. i love flickr!! it’s such a good way to waste a saturday day. maybe i should get up.. and go make some dinner now. but what i am going to make… well i need to make something with a lot of colour now that i have seen this image.

life as a random

haha… so last night i finally had some fun… i hung out with some people that were fucken awesome and hilarious and who brought out the best in me. sure i was just merely a random at their party, but it was great. thanks sarah!

the power of indifference

at home and able to make myself laugh again… ohh laughter how you are such my favourite skill… *shrug* *shrug*

good spirits

so i just want to be in the water off of the isla mujeres… i want to revisit that ‘relaxing unfeeling’… that was so enjoyable… i was just floating there, looking up, smiling and thinking to myself ‘wow this is fucking amazing!!’ there was no stress, and no nervous tension and nothing but the sheer comfort found simply by being in my own skin. i miss that feeling of comfort. i miss that confidence that seemed to be such an intrinsic part of my character. i miss what i thought i once was. now in retrospect… it is the people who surround me that actually paint the portrait of me… they allow me to be who i am and it is kuz they know me best, and the longest… and new people… well they never really get to know the real me… why?!?! kuz… i hold back… and why!?!? who the fuck knows?!? well it certainly has to do with the fact that i am at a different stage in my life than before.. and the people i meet or deal with now are fully established in who they are, and they are not open to simply reforming themselves. this makes sense… so typically i tend to just go silent and fall into the background, meshing with the masses. why don’t i take charge like i once could?… i guess this really was a long time ago when i had this courage.. but i know it’s still in me somewhere, it is just buried under a bunch of shit ‘the system’ piled on… and this drives me crazy everyday… and when i was in mexico… it all didn’t matter… what i experienced at this exact moment i am thinking about seemed so real, so perfect and it seemed to be what life was all about… the bullshit was completely filtered, the beer was cold.. but now that i think about it… at the time… i still wasn’t who i wanted to be… but i guess this is the most recent example i have where i felt this bliss.

a haircut in kitsilano

so today, i suddenly obtained this burst of energy. i got a haircut (finally), made some lasagne, did all my laundry, cleaned my room, obtained a bit more furniture, finished a report for work, did some web site updates, made some phone calls and the list goes on. so overall today was quite productive… i even tried out my new electric shaver… which i have been reluctant to use out of fear… and guess what.. my apprehension was not unfounded… it just chewed the shit out of my neck.. so i don’t know if i’ll use it again and if there is even actually an advantage to use it… i know your skin takes some time to get used to it.. but i don’t know if it is quicker/easier or not.. so i dunno.

crazy tattoo analogy

whoa, it feel like a long time since i have blogged. ever since i attended the northern voice bloggers conference, i feel this weird uneasiness when it comes to blogging. it seems that this day dedicated to blogging produced feelings of FUD around me and my blog. well this FUD has to stop. my thoughts, my feelings, and my opinions will live here – without the need to second-guess myself or live up to some stupid ‘suggested principals’ and/or obey by some precautionary measures…. fuck that. my blog has to be real.. and yes.. this could hinder some possibilities in life, but at least it will be me. i hate to say it, but it is kinda like a tattoo that is purposely put somewhere that cannot be concealed. it tells the world that you are who you are (and no matter how stupid i think tattoos are, in this analogy having a tattoo is quite brave and honourable). both a tattoo and a blog are public and ‘permanent’ means to express yourself… both could be considered art and both are part of you. now… a blog is more useful than a tattoo… well for me at least… since it actually provides me (and possibly others) with some benefit, whereas a tattoo seems to be only useful in itself and what society and individuals deem a tattoo to mean. so.. i guess i am trying to say… that as long as i don’t blog for sheer google juice, to strictly generate revenue or to simply align myself up with some trend… then i will take the risk, continue to blog and share my path in life without fear. (phew, thank god for pseudonyms :P)