so today i choose to ditch my two other interviews to goto ubc. michelle invited me to a seminar and i figured it would be more wise of me to go to the seminar and rub some elbows, do some name drops and simultaneously demonstrate my serious interest in the position to michelle. i did meet a few people, made a few good points when called upon and yeah…
i bought an umbrella today, finally. this is a tool you cannot live without in vancouver… dre stole his back today.. so i was stuck out in the rain… it kinda sucked.. but it wasn’t that bad… my new umbrella is blue and is very compact… i went for the small size over the durability of the larger ones…
i am now sitting here wishing i was at my nerds-on-site seminar… and i would be just arriving (15 minutes late) if i jumped on the bus 2.5 hours ago… langley is far… anyway…. it would of been kool just for the information… even though i know i wouldn’t pursue any opportunities that were presented at the meeting… i think now.. i am going to hit up all the job sites again… send out another torrent of resumes… 1 step higher from last time… and see if i can get a few calls… last time.. i got… 7 call backs… from about 10 applications… so i was defiantely aiming a bit low… but now that i have a job.. (at least until then end of the year) and a good chance of scoring the job at ubc… i can raise my standards again… what else am i going to do??
i do feel like doing some writing, but i am having some serious writers block… i want to write about something meaning full, and not like the post-it notes hanging on the wall… (even tho… i think i may write about those post it notes… it will be good practise… describing them, realating them to something etc… kinda like my spiders webs, and dust entries… )
i am listening to ‘snow patrol – final straw’ right now.. and i am really enjoying it… it is kinda catchy, yet pretty lofi… just thought i’d share…
ok.. enough with this post… time to do some readings and or start writing something more ummm.. better….
it’s all good, up and up.. interview tomorrow for a job i really want and deserve… i just need to organize my thoughts, my experience and my skills, into one complete package that i can present during the interview… i am qualified for this position; i have the experience as well as the connections, so i hope it all works out for me. it would definitely be a step in the right direction to work in this position. i would enhance my connections, further my experience and alas i would become fully self-sufficient… and it would be in record time too… considering i have now been in vancouver only for two full weeks… i also have two interview on wednesday for other positions that are in my field… i am not really concerned about those, since i would love to get the job at UBC… anyway.. just wanted to keep you all posted… but for now.. i need to get organized.. and figure out how i can prove myself… something that i have been unable to do in the past… but it’s weird.. it just feels so different this time…… just so different… it’s like this time, i just know, that i am perfect for this job, it just hinges on my behaviour and actions tomorrow… anyway….
it does feel good to work again… even at 9 bucks an hour… but i know.. that once i get a pay cheque… i will be like wtf… all that work for this?!?!? and plus.. i am way over qualified for futureshop… and i don’t even utilize the skills that i have… and the interests that amuse me… so yeah…
let’s just hope tomorrow goes as it should… everything will occur as it must…. and my life will continue to flow in the path that it is… which is more or less.. up and up… actually it is up and up!!! no matter what way you look at it… i have already achieved so much more, that i would of ever in my room in delaware… and there is still so much more room to grow… up and up… it’s easy to be motivated, when you start anew…
so, andrei and i got a place today, signed a short lease, 7 months… the place will be good.. it’s not as new as i would like, but it will be good, just needs to be decorated, etc… we also need some furniture… but yeah… it’s all signed for already… so it’s done.. no need to worry, just need to accept reality and the fact that i will have to goto work and pay rent… this is kinda kool… i am excited… but not in love… it’s kinda like going to a bar, when you are not in the mood, but when you get there, you run into some people you know and end up having a great time… i hope this place will be like that… kuz if it’s like when you goto the bar, kuz you have nothing better to do, and then the bar sucks, and you just end up wasting your money buying expensive drinks and have no fun.. that would suck…
so yeah… let’s think positive now.. hehe… on monday it will be two weeks in vancouver.. and i have been working fulltime for one week… and now have a fixed address!!! yey!! this week coming up.. i have 3 job interviews… one that I really really really really want… one that may be alright.. and the other.. which will involve some risk… and of course…
i have my futureshop until the end of december at least… its all up and up baby…
damn i wish there was a tv in here… i could really use some passive entertainment right now… the damn www is just to engaging…
well… this week has been busy busy, it fucken weird working everyday… it sucks too, kuz the things i enjoy doing, i can’t do… i can’t blog, i can’t be an information junky, i can’t stay up all night, i can’t lounge all day and think about things… i guess when you work everyday… you need to become a ‘company man’… and i guess this is the only way to get satisfaction from work (excluding work that actually helps people of course)… now i think my problem is that i am starting at ground zero in my company.. i am the lowest of the low, and it feels like my accomplishments have been ignored, my position requires no knowledge… you could learn everything during training, and be successful in this position… i could add a lot to this company, and i could be quite successful… there is plenty of room to go up!! but it sucks that i am at zero of a billion… i guess i need to prove myself, to get noticed and to do this, i need to be willing to work for free, ship a few more units, and sell myself out to the man…
i guess in reality, i haven’t really proved much to the world yet. sure i finished school, but big deal.. this does give me more clout… (it just has made me smarter, determined, and more goal oriented than most) but it has also made my head a lot bigger.. not that i think that i am better than ppl who have not finished school, but i tend to notice when people do not have a liberal education. they tend not to see the value in life, yourself, the things you enjoy, etc… it all boils down to money for them… and this was how i was before i completed my degree….
so the question is, do i still have what it takes to be successful in the business, for-profit world? can i work 9-5? i think i can… i just think i need the right opportunity, as well, the dedication to continue to improve myself in all aspects… i need to maintain the balance…
it just bothers me.. because during all this training they are trying to make everyone company orientated, and they do this by providing incentives… which is all good.. and it all makes sense in the business world… but really, do i care if best buy/future shop makes 5 billion in sales over the next 5 years (5 in 5)… and the answer is…. “i don’t know”….
i don’t know if i should sell people 50 dollar cables to hook up their dvd players to their tv… especially when i know these people are on budgets.. and they just want to make their family members happy at christmas…. now.. if i was all money and company orientated.. i would… i would sell the $150 dollar dvd player, with the $50 cables, and the $50 product performance plan… why? kuz i make more money if i rip ppl off… sales sucks… i don’t want to lie to people… fuck what i am saying.. i haven’t even been on the floor yet… but i just know, it’s the people that can’t afford to be ripped off, that always get ripped off….
i know i am just kinda all over the place right now, but i am just venting all my thoughts, kuz i haven’t had time to do this… fuck.. i should be looking for an apartment though, so i can have some comfort and satisfaction in my living conditions…
i miss my writing, i miss my music, i need to put these back into my life… there is so many thing i have to do… but guess what? its fucken awesome.. kuz i made the first step.. by changing up my old routine… i did it… just need to become a bit more settled in.. and it’s done… then i can focus on some new goals… and continuing happiness….
everyday.. i see the “bums”, i see the “successful”, i see the students, i see the “working class”, i see people from a billion different cultures, and then i see me (in the reflection on the window of one of the many buses/skytrains that i am on, or in the puddles on the ground)
how do people do it? do people just not question it? do people just accept things and their life as it is? if so that sucks… but maybe everyone on is just in their process… i guess they say life is a journey; not a destination.. so i guess this is my life.. it’s kinda kool… when i was in training today.. i looked around.. and i was like… wow.. i don’t know any of these 100 people… yet… i have still developed ‘friendships’ with a few…
it’s kinda neat how future shop put so much effort/money into training… i do give them credit for that… (mind you, they need to, kuz most of the people they hire do not know shit, when they walk through the door)… me.. i don’t know shit either… i am in a department that i know nothing about, nor do i have much interest in… but that’s the kool part, i am going to learn something… and i will improve my sales skills, that will benefit me in many aspects of my life…
i belong in support though, i enjoy problem-solving… etc… support is actually helping people… sales is just ‘evil’… i know i can sell though… i know i can do it… i am challenging myself…. i’ve got at least a month to dabble in this… unless i get fired before that.. hehe… but even if i got fired.. that would be kool… kuz that would be a first too!!
(ps. if future shop/best buy IT security people are reading this? can i have a job in headoffice now? get your ppl to call my ppl… thanks)
well things seem to be falling into place, everything is working out, just as i anticipated…. i’ve got a job; one to start off with, at least one interview coming up this week, and i am comfortable in this city. the only problem is that i miss my buddy; she’s my buddy. i am just in the mood to chill with her right now, and i can’t… i can’t laugh and enjoy her company or even be annoyed with her… it’s just can’t happen right now… this is tuff… it sucks… i liked having her there…. she was awesome that way… and in many ways… fuck.. i can’t blog this.. i am getting to get too emotional.. especially with the music i have on right now… (mineral – if i could)…
so far vancouver has been really awesome, the weather has been good (i must of brought the sunshine with me). it is always damp and wet, but oddly enough i think my lungs have learned to like it (opposed to when i was young and ended up in the hospital every spring). this week has been really easy, mainly because of the friends i have from back home. but even when they are gone home, i think it will still be pretty easy… i’ll get a job, goto work, go out the odd nite and yeah do what everyone does. when i think about going home, i think of the good times, and the comfort i have there… i know how to talk to people there, i know it inside and out… but then i think ‘wait, it will be the same old thing if i go back’… (i know i have only been here for four days, but i am thinking long term so i am considering all my options)… vancouver will teach me a lot and i will grow as a person and this is what it is all about: progress.
i applied for a bunch of jobs today, ranging from shitie mall jobs to good full-time positions… i will be doing a lot of that, until i score something. there is no way i can survive without income. and fucken employment insurance is ass, its been over 11 weeks since i have applied and nothing… they owe me some damn money… but it’s not just the money that i need from work, its the exposure gained… now the mall is not the answer, something with a latter to climb would be nice, something to work towards… but i guess that is still all ahead… fuck it’s been 4 days, since i took the plunge, no need to be concerned yet, this is still a holiday…
well.. i am in vancouver bc now… and i have almost spent a whole day here.. and so far… it seem really kool… having high speed internet is awesome!!! as well as wireless!! there is a lot of hills in this damn city… but it seems to really add to its character… took the bus down 4th today.. through the kits area.. and i love it… me and dre need to find a place down there… it would be awesome.. it is kool here too… in west point grey… but its not quite as kool as kits… i meet salpy down at robson and granville… and walked around downtown a alot.. even went to e hastings… and saw a billion bums… and china town… and yeah.. last nite went to granville island… and it seems kool.. its was pretty dead last nite.. but that will be another trip to do during the day… i think for a few days.. i will keep touristing around.. especially while salpy and mark are down… and then after that.. i will focus on the job hunt.. and start the apartment hunt… good times… peace all…
ps… sorry for saying kool so many times!
must start packing… i am so lazy right now, i don’t want to move… must start packing… but here’s the problem… i need to pack my speakers, but i need to listen to music while i pack… so i dunno what to do!! i guess i could hook up my ghetto speakers.. yeah… good idea!! damn i am smrt…. ok… gotta choke down this coffee… get me some energy… and pack… l8r all…
Change: something that I used to be so accustomed to and now have become so unfamiliar with. My life has pretty much been static for quite sometime now. Nothing progressive has really has happened – nothing overly good and nothing overly bad. Sure, a few things have occurred. I have graduated from University, which is good; but then I have lost a friend, which is bad. Overall though, I would say my live is not totally stagnant, but rather it has become slightly downward sloping. This is quite disappointing for me and this is why my move next week is so important. It will give me the chance to change, grow and become the person I want to be.
That’s all I am going to write now, since I really don’t know where I am going with this, but right now I am experiencing a lot of mixed emotions, including: sadness, regret, anxiousness, fear, excitement, happiness… etc. It’s all kind of kool! I am feeling stuff and I feel human. I guess when you make decisions that change your life and the life of others; you kill the apathy inside and become human once again.
It is too bad Kerry didn’t win the American election. I think a Kerry win would have been good to help re-establish the respect and the image of America around the world. Over the past few years, people have blamed Bush; but now the American people have spoken, and the majority of Americans feel the same way as Bush. This means, the other 49% of people, who are against Bush and his policies, will have to take the focus off of combating Bush himself, and focus on resolving the actual issues at hand. The American people have spoken! The amusing part is, the results are pretty much aligned with the results of the 2000 election. Meaning, all the ads and campaigning was pointless and futile. Anyway, and with these e-voting machines; am I the only person in the world who has the solution??!??!?! Push the button for you want to vote for. The machine records this in the database (just as it does now), and here’s the kicker… next the machine PRINTS a receipt that tell you who you voted for, and then you put this piece of paper into a box!!!! This would allow the system to be quick and not require a manual count of ballots, but if needed, it would allow for an independent recount!!! geeze people!!! Well there is no more need to talk about this American bullshit here anymore, check out CNN or Fox (for the 51%) or commondreams or znet (for the 49%) ! Peace.