there should be another way record what i am thinking slash feeling without needing the actual mental process that is required to write it out coherently. if this was possible this weblog would be way less ambiguous and would actually be an interesting record of my life. but guess what, that method doesn’t exist, so here i am, in essence, writing about wanting to write about, what i essentially want to write about.
well some of you may notice i changed the style of this blog. it still has the boring grey look.. and seems kinda awkward but the menus on the side are now more IE friendly.. this look will probably change in the near future… but for now enjoy if you can.
UPDATE 14:43: i’ve added a bit of asynchronous javascript and xml (AJAX) to the side menus.. just click the titles to expand the content.. also.. the new look is slowing becoming refined…. let me know if ya like it.. by commenting on this post.. i am open to all suggestions.. but reserve the right to ignore them..
UPDATE 19:06: well i’ve got live search working how i want it too.. by sorting the results in reverse chronological order and fixing the error it was getting before.. search is still limited to one word, but i think that’s a good balance between the kool factor and functionality for now…
UPDATE 19:31: oops.. live search isn’t working in firefox.. and some other browsers i guess.. works in safari tho.. so everyone.. go out and buy a mac.. ok? also, i need mod the stylesheet/layout a bit more to be more friendly with smaller resolutions…
well, when i came home today, there was no one here. my mom and sister left for london ontario this morning, which makes tonight is the first night in my new place all by my lonesome. the apartment feels really big with two less people living here, but i am sure i will get eventually get accustomed to it. once again, i need to find some furniture and this time, i actually want stuff i like, and that will directly reflect my personality. now, i understand it’s going to be hard to find a sarcastic sofa with a minor superiority complex within my budget; but i’ll try! anyways, i do have a good feeling about this pad of mine here, and i think it stems from the idea of it being all mine; i have total and compete control over every aspect of my home, and i find that extremely kool. also, the idea that it is located in the third most densely populated area in all of north america [wikipedia], that it’s close to absolutely everything, and that it gets me out of my old garden level suite, are all also… very kool. now that i am here, i just know, that everything that is missing in my life, will now soon be found, since i think this apartment was the last bit of asphalt i needed lay, before i could successfully open the new road i am on.
well here is a quick update. today, i was at the office for the first time in quite some time; i moved to my new place in Vancouver’s west end; my mom and sister are currently visiting; and, my trip to edmonton was largely a success.
so i am heading to edmonton tomorrow morning, and i am looking forward to the trip. i have never been to edmonton or even alberta and i see this as the beginning of my canadian tour. why edmonton you might ask? well, that’s simple; it’s a business trip. i am attending a 3 day conference monday, tuesday, wednesday, and i figured i’d fly in a tad early and spend the entire weekend in a strange and unfamiliar canadian city. now, this weekend will provide me with some new places to visit and a huge mall to shop at, while the days of the conference will give me a chance to mingle and develop professional relationships with my colleagues from all over this vast nation of ours. now, the last time i went to a conference of this magnitude, i was still a very naif pupil; unsure of my position in the overall scheme of things and thus somewhat dependent on my boss’ confidence and interpersonal skills. also, since my role at that time did not harness the connections made at the conference, many of them simply fizzled away. this time around, i am actually in a position to utilize these interrelationships, and i look forward to building my network. it’s all on me baby, and it shouldn’t be a problem at all… well, assuming we have the normal after-hour gatherings at a local watering hole.
well i did it, today i signed a lease for one year. i made a commitment for once in my life. *pat, pat* now i didn’t really choose to make the commitment, since it was ‘required’ to end my quickly approaching homelessness, however it was a big step for me. so my new place is in the west end, basically as east as you can get in the west end, but a perfect location no doubt. 1.5 blocks to… a grocery store, a bus stop that has a bus that goes directly to work, to shopping, etc. my suite is half renovated, meaning it has a new kitchen sink and counter top, but with old cupboards.. now none of that will mater once i fill it up with my shit.. and make it my home. i could of went for a wholly renovated suite on the 14th floor facing the mountains, but it was quite small. so i went with the 8th floor, the extra 100 sq. ft. and a view of downtown instead. i will probably flickr some pix when i move in. but for now, you all can rest assured that i have a home for canada day!
there must be a way to obtain rental housing without that dreadful ‘auction’ feeling, which is that feeling of pressure, where you need to make a snap decision now, or you’ll miss your chance to have what you are being presented. it’s that feeling that doesn’t allow for much comparison, research, or all those important things that are done by good consumers. now.. none of this would actually matter if we were talking about peanuts here, but housing will take up >1/3 of my income.. and to-boot it comes with a nice one year commitment… well, i guess the easy way, is to get ripped off and simply bite the bullet, but there is just something inside me, that hates doing that.
currently, i find myself struggling to write anything of significance and this is troubling me dearly. this is quite unfortunate, since i do have plenty of idle time, that i can waste to write and post to this blog. i guess i am just in desperate need of a marvelous and inspirational occurrence that will give me something exhilarating to transcribe and share – writing about my trips to the beach are starting to aggravate me, since they are just a record of a now routine event where nothing thrilling ever materializes.
so yesterday i watched way too much ‘family guy’, especially episodes with the commentary turned on. i know this, because last night, my dreams had a voice track over top of whatever was going on. now, i don’t actually remember what i dreamt, so i can’t really write too much more… but i do distinctly recall the voice over… now onward.. this morning, when i woke up, i decided to toss on the hoodie and head out to cash in my free beverage at safeway… and on the way back the pad.. i ran into dave (one of the students who was working for one of the partnering offices of last week’s event)… it was kinda neat, actually running into somebody! he had a full car and obviously plans, so i just continued my voyage back home. i then chilled out for a while, finished my drink, and then headed back out and went to the book warehouse, where i picked up a book (reefer madness, schlosser, 2003). next, it was just me, my book and a bottle of water, that headed down to the beach.. it was unusually cold for May, but it was still pretty comfortable…. after a couple of hours of reading and people/water/mountain watching… the hunger started to engulf my mind, so i returned home and made some eats. then i read some more… took a shower… and watched some family guy. – please accept my apologies for this mundane post, but it’s all i can share without actually engaging in some multi-directional dialogue.
the feeling inside is so motivational that it is shocking; actually feeling like you are willing to do anything, just to get a chance. you still need to keep your kool though, and not try too hard, but while you hope all night long that tomorrow another opportunity will arise, you realize that, if it does, you will have the power to gain something, that you can be that much closer, and this is truly amazing. bare in mind you need to play the cards you are dealt, so act accordingly to achieve maximum results.